Between Monday and Tuesday

You know that awkward moment when it's technically "tomorrow" but you still haven't fallen asleep from today? The time when all your thoughts rush to your head yet you're too tired to write them down. 

That's what time it is now and as I was aimlessly playing around on my phone, I found an old poem that I actually wrote one year ago from today. It was written in response to a story a friend told me a while back. Being moved by that story, I wrote for the first time in probably a year. Since then, it has been another full year and I have not come back to writing regularly and that makes me sad. So as incentive to keep me writing (my rough, never finished piece) ... 

Through the darkness

See her gaze

Know she's out there

In a daze

And like the quiet 

After the storm

Over here

It's all done 

Words can't describe 

The pain tonight

The love that's lost

The internal fight

Loyally, 

Beth

March Love in a Box

Hello lovelies!

It feels so good to be sitting down for a few moments and writing. While I would love to write about one of the random thoughts in my head, I am actually super excited to share about my March experience with the Love in a Box blogger swap.

I was paired with Hannah from Words as Palindromes and may I just say that this girl is like my other half! She just gets me! From learning that we have similar majors to sending each other nearly some of the same items because we just get each other, we have become blogger friends! I am just so happy I got to participate in this box swap!

Now for the best part of this post (I get to brag about all my goodies!)

When I opened my box, I instantly say this adorable mason jar glass! I hadn't even mentioned it but anyone who knows me knows I never go anywhere without bringing a bottle of water and now I have this super cute cup to carry it in.

Then I saw these candles... I was momentarily bummed because while I adore candles, we are not allowed to burn them or even have them in our dorm. That's when I noticed that they are battery operated scented candles! They smell amazing and when turned on they flicker like a real candle. My roommate and I are just slightly obsessed. 

As I kept digging I saw not one but two pairs of socks. I couldn't help it... I wore the cheetah print socks before I was able  to take a pic of them. 

Also, there was a note, pens, and a pocket organizer included which were all sweet surprises to get me through the remainder of this semester! 

I had a great month participating in this project and am looking forward to April Love in a Box! If you are interested in joining click here for information!

Loyally,

Beth

Things I am Afraid to Tell You

Hello all,

It is officially Sunday on the east coast and I am finally posting a SSU on a Sunday! I'm quite proud of myself, actually. I missed last weeks post and well as all the planned posts because I was overwhelmingly busy. Though I am still busy 24/7, I am making myself take a moment to blog because I honestly miss writing my thoughts for all to read and pretend to care about!

So instead of "summing up" my past two weeks, because it would literally be... School, I am instead going to share something I have been interested in posting for a while.

As I spend my evenings reading other blogs, I have recently came across many bloggers posting a list of things they are afraid to admit. I find this super interesting for two main reasons: 1. I love lists and 2. I think it is cool for people to have courage to profess their fears and when they realize they are not alone in them it is a refreshing feeling.

So....

Things I am Afraid to Tell You

• I have crazy anxiety and get freaked out my 99% of things. This includes speaking in front of people, and really just speaking in general... I'd rather observe than engage. 
• I struggle at normal people conversation. This probably in some way links back to the anxiety in which I have to tell myself to actually make sounds come out of my mouth. 
• I am a communications minor... HA, funny? I thought so too. What is someone who has social anxiety and struggle making conversation thinking by minoring in communications? Well, not only that, but I also major in psychology and have a second minor in global health studies. I plan on being a Behavior Analyst, which also involves talking... so I better work on that social anxiety problem. 
• I love special needs children with every piece of my heart. I would rather have a job working with special needs children that pays nothing that having a super easy job that pays a ton. 
• I put things off far too much, for example, waking up... I constantly push the snooze button and keep putting off my morning so much to the point where I have had to create a rewards system for myself for not hitting snooze. 
• I sometimes will eat multiple doughnuts or equally unhealthy foods and watch up to 6 hours of Netflix in one day just because I don't want to get up... it really is a struggle.
• I love love love leading. I love organizing and making plans for events and carrying them out. I love being in charge... I just don't like speaking.
• I sometimes get easily annoyed at people but I do not express anger or annoyance because I am against hate and bad moods. 
• I have this issue with asking for help... I just do not do it. I refuse to ask for help even when I know I really need it.
• I am a struggling Christian and am proud of my faith. I feel that the struggling part might throw some people off but I must put it because I do struggle constantly with living a Christian life in a college town. It is hard.

And that is enough digging into my fears for the night. I challenge you all to acknowledge your fears and realize that you are not alone in them. 

Loyally, 

Beth